Golden Emptiness: When the Subconscious Mind Takes Control Uncontrollably After What the Heart Desires (English)

I don't know why I have to write this suddenly, maybe there's some strange phenomenon that just crossed my mind, perhaps when I felt sensitive or particularly observant about the behavior of a female colleague whom I admire. She often posts lunch moments with her female friends, and sometimes I notice she also posts with male friends without hesitation, tagging their accounts. But why am I not treated the same way? What's in the heart of that woman? And for a moment, I found myself thinking universally without control, "WHY AM I TREATED DIFFERENTLY FROM OTHER MALES?"

This philosophical question, along with its accompanying dilemma, is not surprising for an ENFP type prone to overthinking. But this is where I embrace all phenomena. Because what I aim for is to seek universal justice; where I become the object of research to prove that this can be analyzed and find the best solution for those who experience similar thoughts.

So here it goes.

The subconscious mind is actually not terrifying. It's like a swamp; full of green mossy grass with many branches. These branches are sometimes filled with various types of plants that can be "threatening," "warning," or giving signs of danger or warnings so that "I" can navigate through each line of thought without any problem. However, when not well prepared, I will be trapped in obstacles that are difficult to overcome, causing the swamp to grow denser. This covers every path and eventually leads to projections trapped in the path of collective unconscious beliefs.

The hardest part of this is a signal for humans to accept an impulse that they can realize a significant "uniqueness" within themselves. For example, an independent type like INFP may have a different outlook on the future compared to the same type filled with resentment and hatred for the past. This "unique" part is also a risk and consequence that humans must bear in dealing with the branching subconscious thoughts because it can disrupt every journey through the impulses received from reality.

According to Carl Jung, the human subconscious mind becomes an enemy to itself because it is a collection of complex memories that are intertwined into a very complicated unity known as the "complex." The complex reflects something that cannot be controlled when humans store millions of buried memories, becoming a source of expression and having a "space of inspiration for anxiety" that humans have. When humans have so many complexes that are woven into a single meaning, it can become a "big explosion" when all complexities respond to stimuli that are "aligned."

A simple example is when talking about an "ex", it can trigger various associations that ultimately create anxiety. It's not surprising that humans tend to use instant methods like drinking alcohol or using tranquilizers to cope with this. However, the best way to deal with this is by creating new experiences to unearth buried memories.

It's not an easy thing to do, but the more we try, the more we are able to realize the buried subconscious thoughts. Humans need to confront this problem honestly and find solutions, even if it may be painful at first.

So, let's find the main problems of our subconscious thoughts and give ourselves time to express them to the right person. Perhaps it's a friend, relative, or professional who can help us find a solution. Remember, being true to oneself is the ultimate goal of all this. So, it doesn't make sense to continuously hide behind a false persona.

Until now, I still haven't been able to express everything, but for me, it's not difficult. Sometimes, taking a step forward to express oneself honestly is the best step, even if it's painful. Hopefully, this journey will lead us to a deeper understanding of ourselves, towards a valuable emptiness.