No One Understands Me: Lover Regret.

Regret. To express the courage to talk about feelings. Regret will only cloud the constantly remembered memories, indirectly affecting one's attitude.

Somehow, I wonder how to forget feelings that might be because of two things; She's disgusted with my presence.

Time brought us together in nervous conditions.

If indeed she is disgusted with me, indirectly her attitude will make it difficult for her to accept my presence because perhaps she hates to reject directly and prefers to "postpone" rather than hurt someone else's feelings.

Or secondly, maybe she and I have already met but we're not ready. Still, both of us are afraid of the gossip from everyone else watching.

It feels difficult to just ask for a photo together. I always seem to miss the chance because of the two things mentioned earlier.

Even though I always take the opportunity to greet her; capturing videos or photos at certain moments for her, it feels like I'm someone who doesn't make her comfortable, even though she only responds to me minimally. But, somehow, I love her. That's it.

Sad, mixed with every other basic emotion, to the point where she just looks away when I approach. Am I that bad?

Or does she feel uncomfortable when I'm around?

I just hope.

Tonight, she's okay.

I pray that someday, a similar situation can happen again when, accidentally, we wear the same color coincidentally.

God, I just love her. Even though I don't have any intentions to have her.

Please, help me through someday I can have her holding hand that I love her, as her friend. That's all. 😭