Habis Jatuh, Terbitlah Sakit

Yeah..

Baru aja beberapa minggu terakhir ini, 

Cinta tumbuh bagai sebuah kanker. 

Ketika ia senangi bagian tubuh tertentu, 

semakin cepat ia menggergoti hingga habis. 

Jujur, 

Lelahnya ku alami ini setiap periode. 

I'm tired with 'Love' 

Which distracts me always 24/7

Only one sight, then become long vision. 

When something has planned as what I see, 

only one problem had done the flow.

Relationship.

I realizes, people, especially women, 

they cannot be understood for what I intended for them. 

Always. Be in half mind. 

Between "meladeni gue dengan terpaksa" dan "takut gw kecewa" 

Oh, damn. 

I prefer disappointed with all the things must not in my side. 

When it's hard to accept it, at least it made myself realizes. 

But, it's okay. 

I must be the one who always be wrong. 

Wrong intention

Wrong the way to treat women

Wrong how to be honest for myself

Wrong about what I had seen in maself

Wrong.. Wrong.. Wrong.. 

As always, introspection make me like introvert in everyday. 

When someone people sees me happy usually as extrovert. 

Jadi, 

Haruskah lagi-lagi ku jatuh hati lagi? 

Kayanya enggak deh. 

Pamungkas cukup memberiku lirik yang mewakili perasaan ini.. 

I give up trying

At least for today

Lying is lying

It's never okay

Bend it all you want

Hide it all you can

I give up trying

I give up trying

I am better off without you

But.. 

Seenggaknya gw tidak menjauh dari mereka. 

Meski, gw diabaikan. 

Yaelah. 

Matahari bersinar setiap hari aja bisa diabaikan. 

Dianggap risih, iya. 

Bikin orang kepanasan, juga iya. 

Emang sih. 

Itulah gw. 

Mau gimana lagi, yah lain kali gantian aja dah shift sama awan mendung. 

Biar giliran dia yang membasahi sejenak bumi ini, 

dan gw bersembunyi, 

Atau, I go somewhere which forgot dimana bakal terbit sebelah timur atau barat. 

~

😢